♠ New Year Ahead

"Pisces opens up your world, and life, to opportunities beyond anything you’d imagined possible." - Shelley Von Strunckel, The year of Vision

Another year will pass, making way for the birth of a new year.

I will stay, rooted to my quest..for self salvation, self affirmation and self awareness.

Yea, rite..

2008, is a year of massive change for me. A year I made a big decision, a year I affirm what I've set out to do, a year where I've got to let go of the past which had been eating away my resolve.

2009, I hope, is a year where good things happen to good people, resolutions resolved itself and reaffirm to a certain height and strength, and many missions accomplished with high regards for self and others who's in for the ride.

I'd wish for a better economy for everyone; please continue spending as usual (minus the hectic extravagant shoppings and credits) cos that's how we can all save ourselves from this brink of economy downfall. But dont forget to save for the rainy days as well.

Hope ya'll have a good year in 2008, it will get better in 2009, only if one labour while pray..and leave all hopes to the wind.

♠ Twilight Mania

Watched Twilight when it came out, been intrigued by the cover of the promos.

But dissappointed with the action pack, which is almost none and the vampires are so different from the usual ones we know; no fangs, glittery skin against the sun..

I guess that book's written from the perspective of the girl who loved the vamp, which really sux cos I read that some lines were so sappy, the main actress refused to read em aloud.

She might've used some lines as emotion, which explains a lot of the confusion I saw on screen. The book's overflowing with mixed emotions, which is pretty tough to portray on movie, which I guess why many many good looking ppl were recruited.

Anyway, for the new casts involved with the whole Twilight thing, I'm sure it's been a fun ride. With the movie making almost 6X profit from it's original budget, which mainly made from hormonal teens or couples or fans of the books who watched it more than once.

I'm pretty sure the franchise would do well cos the world is overloaded with rich teens with nowhere to spend. Just remember to try out Asian countries like Korea, Japan, Taiwan..will earn right off the roof. I'm sure the exec producers most probably be laughing in their cash flowing pool while clinking champagne glasses to another deal of cheap scripts and cheaper promos (lotsa fans are helping to spread the words).

It's a sad thing looking at the youngsters in Hollywood amidst all those fame, and when I said fame, it's usually what vices are opened to those monthly flavors like drugs, parties, drinks, open arms of fans world wide.

I really hope that the Pattinson guy wouldnt follow the act of Jude Law cos I can somehow foresee sex scandals and minor acting ahead. Cos then his acting life will be shortlived.

I'm sure LA is like the city of constant partying and where all the popular girls and boys (or plastic-enhanced) hang out.

I just hope that with all those armful resources available, the scripts would get better and the gagging materials would be reduced.

But, I guess not, as long as the cash comes rolling in, who really cares what the scripts are like. Heck, I mean during bad economy like now, movies like Beverly Hills Chihuahua as making box office.

I guess tinseltown is like a gold mine where ppl rush in, except it's all an illusion and everybody's living somebody else's dreams and nobody gets off in one piece.

Fame..oh, what shallow fun.

♠ Annoyed

Done some thinking the other day, bout things that's bothering me.

The most is an sms that's making me pissed, cos I've expected so much more from this person.

Anyway, realised there're big differences between my two sisters' bfs.

Like this one case:

One bf would plan her schedule so she'd be back during the day, so she'd be safe. Considering she's living in kl, that's understandable.

Another bf wouldnt care so much bout what time she'd be back home (past midnite), I'd presume as long as he's spending more time with her. Considering she's coming back from Aus, I think that's just plain selfish.

Another case:

If my sis is going to long distance travelling with her bf, she'd make sure she calls when she reaches the destination, even if it's only the bf's parents hometown. Or he'd sms to inform me that they've arrived safely.

Another sister would sometimes forget to sms home. For her age, I'd understand cos she can be moronic sometimes. But when she travels far, do I need to be the first person to sms to ask when she's arrived or when she's coming home? And when I ask em to remember to sms back, I got a rude sms telling me not to lecture and being all defensive. It just doesnt make sense.

I appreaciate that he's protective over the gf, which is a good thing, but towards the wrong person. One dont get defensive over family; one explains.

The correct response when he received my sms is "Sorry, I will remember to sms." and keep his word and remember to keep us noted of the most important things, like when my sis arrived or is coming home (cos she'd skipped many of her classes), if they are going to diff country, all those big decisions.

I'd like to blame it on cultural difference, or mood or even other lame excuses.

But, end of the day, it's the person that's making all the judgements. Try to put oneself in the different shoes; imagine if the guy got a baby girl of his own and the kid is spending the time w the bf's family in diff country, what would the dad expect to hear?

Dad : "Hey, remember to sms back once a while.."

Baby's bf : "Dont lecture me. She smsed back once a while, maybe she doesnt know how to use the hp very well..bla bla bla bla.."

F*cker.

Does it take long to sms? Even I'm not that retarded.

Also, after I've smsed to ask what time the sis gonna get back, the bf mentioned midnite, which already made me apprehensive. I'm sure for some ppl they wouldnt worry, but my sis is a single female travelling alone. Tho sg is pretty safe, it's not crime-proof.

Thus, I waited till 9++pm. Only to get another sms saying that she'd be back midnite, the next day. My first thought is, "Darn, and I only got this sms at 9++pm?" cos the travelling took like 8-10 hrs. If they'd changed the time, at least they shuld've informed me..like..8 hrs earlier when they made the decision.

Second thought is, "What bout her classes?"

Fine, I calmed myself. Blaming my sis for being the bird-brain that she is, I can only blame myself for not confirming with them earlier. Cos I took it for granted somebody would act responsibly, and I'm talking bout my sis.

So, this morning I received another sms saying that she will come home, tomorrow at 5am. Whoohoo..at least it's not the midnite ride, but why keep on postponing?

Seriously, I do not know how to explain to my mum. I dont know how to explain to myself. I do not know why my sis is behaving like this, this time trip. Previously she did wonderfully, being a responsible adult.

This time, I'm just awfully dissappointed. Which means I have to start talking to her like an elder sister does.

I dunno what to think, cos if I said anything, ppl would presume I nag or talk too much. But I've always considered myself to be less vocal unless it's necessary. But really..

But, I guess it really doesnt matter what I think. Only how I feel, which is pissed.

Aarrgh..there are assholes, and there are ASSHOLES..and this really top it off. *bugger..

♠ Mumbling Mumbo Jumbo

I was ovulating these past few days..many incoherent words came out of my mind.

Now I'm back, and the day resumes..

♠ Obsession

"Hard to breathe,
This rythmn of strength that..grows stronger day by day,
Stop..before it's too late." - ngy

Everybody's bound to have a bout of obsession once a while in their lives.

I've had my share of obsessive compulsion. It was a tough time for my body to get used to the pace in my mind as I'd drink everything up depending on my obsession of the week.

I guess I stressed myself out, but it was such a bitter sweet memory that I'd do it all over again.

Now, I've matured. Whenever I felt a pang of the old obsession in the beat of my heart, I'd stop a while, and pull myself out.

Take a deep breath, and start counting the days.

It was a very self-aware fasting, cos too much of a good thing..can be bad.

Imagine going thru 24 hrs a day, self-consciously holding one back.

"Keep calm, keep walking..keep breathing."

Control is a mundane thing, but obsession can destroy one's soul a little at a time.

I'm now learning to take obsession in small doses..sometimes it overwhelms and take over..but I will get there.

One day.

♠ Toy Christmas

My toys would like to say Merry Christmas 2009 to everyone..



Merry Christmas, everyone!!!

♠ Congrats Bestie!

This is a post to congrats my friend; Siau Ing and Meng Han.

Thanks for inviting me and my sis for the food gorgeous event, we had lotsa gorging during the time and I had fun taking lotsa photos. Will mail em to u asap, wait for my slow mail. ;)

Congrats, girl..and I know Meng Han's going to love u lots. ;)

♠ Bestie's Wedding

One of my bestie had her wedding luncheon in Kahang, Johor.

And me and my sis went as a part of sisterhood group to make the brotherhood's job a little tougher when the groom came to fetch the bride.

We agreed to wear white, tho for the life of me, I've never dabbled in white in my wardrobe for social purpose.

Here's me.


Here's my sis.


Here's the photos I and Zin took during the day.





White..

♠ Christmas of 2009

Wrapped the pressie above all by myself, even made the little white box customised to the gifts. Supergirl just watched.

Christmas is coming, and I'm feeling kinda homesick where I'd just lay on the sofa as we do the countdown with movies and food.

Will be celebrating christmas alone in sg this year, means nobody to bother or irritate me!! Yeah!

Made this paper laurel one nite when in the mood; sis helped with cutting half of the leaves and I did the rest. Supergirl has no patience..*sigh..

Inspired by this..


Merry Christmas, everyone.

♠ Sunset

The window of the room is excellent, I have a great view of the sun during good days.

Dun even need to step out of the room. How excellent is that, hehe..

Here's a shot of the sunset.

More coming soon..

♠ Snap Snap

Got a Xmas gift for myself.

Been practicing on my feet for couple of days. My feet have high self-esteem right now. Even better than Supergirl on good days..o_0

Anyway, I'm gonna set up a nice photo space when I'm inspired.

♠ Fetish and Bob

Everybody is entitle to at least one.

Mine's nail colors and earings.

Lately there's shoes, but I've limits to the pairs I'm owning..not more than 10.

I also love clothes, but I've favourite shops in KL. I kinda miss all those time when I browse thru the shops in KL, I never thought I'd take things for granted, but I did.

Anyway, I've a plant too. Learning to appreaciate life, or learn something from it.

I found Bob in IKEA one day shopping with my sis, aka Supergirl.

I wanted the bigger stalk, cos everybody knows what they say bout bigger firmer stalks..they live longer cos they got their own water reserve.

Then I started thinking I should start small..in case it died on me. Partly cos it's cheap.

So, I picked up a small little plant and walked to the paying counter.

I used to place it in the bathroom, providing us with oxygen while we bathe.

Then I tot it deserves some sunlight. And put it by the window.

Couple of days later when I checked on it, it went limped, cos this room is occupied by a cold-blooded animal and an insect.

So I quickly poured some water into it while I nagged at Supergirl for not watering it.

The next day, it grew back! Miracle what little water can do.

So, everybody, meet Bob.

♠ Newspaper Strips

I was making hawaiian costume for my friend's wedding.

And since I love colors, I decided to play around with recycle stuff.

Paper seems available all the time.

I cant stop loving the feel of paper beneath my hands; coarse and dry, colorful and monochrome, confusing or simple.

So many possibilities..so much emotions.

I love papers.

♠ Rain Rain..

Rain on the window pane, calling out to me..

"Angela..Angela..let us in.."

Scary. But beautiful.

This is what it looks like when it rains from the window of the room..before the sun comes out.

This is what it looks like when the sun comes out.

I can feel the warmth.

♠ Supergirl

There's a supergirl living in my room.

She's naughty but nice, crazy and cranky, ovulating and crying all at the same time.

Which is why I called her..Supergirl..cos who the heck can have all those emotions run amok all at the same time!?!