♠ Slumber

It's odd that when I was younger, I couldnt control my dreams.

So, sometimes I'd wake up abruptly or covered in cold sweat, from dreams like being eaten alive by zombies, surprised by flying ghosts, swallowed by sharks or crocodiles. Rather drastic and mind-shocking at first.

Now, as I grow older, I realised I can control a little bit of my emotion, thus my dreams. Not a lot of control like what food I was going to eat or what I was wearing, but I can control not being eaten alive or chewed to pieces as I looked at the scene like a floating body.

Makes me wonder, the shocking dreams from my younger years, is it due to me not being able to control how I was feeling? Or me not facing my fears.

And since I was getting older, I guess, I just got mellowed. But that doesnt mean I'm still not getting that belly ring or perhaps a little tattoo to mark that milleage in my life.

I still get the fear each time I dream, which explain why I dun get many.

Like when I dreamt of swimming with whales and eels, I never know when the sharks going to appear, or when it's goin to swallow me whole.

But many times, while fear gnawed, I get amazement from the clarity of the dreams which I had, and I kinda learnt to remember and enjoy the feeling.

Thus when I woke up, I remembered the color and touch and some details, I swear I could almost taste it.

Most of all, I remembered how I felt. And I'm grateful, that I dream.