I was watching The Kid starring Bruce Willis.
He's so darn sexy in the movie, that I gotta say.
The way he looks from one thing then to a person, there's something bout the eyes; self assured.
Anyway, I like the movie.
There's this part bout Rusty talking to the reporter in an empty pub.
He was asking her what she'd do if her past came asking.
And she said, "If little Deidre came here asking, I'd tell her, 'Baby, everything's gonna be just great'..I mean how many of us turns out to be what we wanted to be?"
I guess that's true.
When I was little, everytime the teacher asked us to write our ambitions, I'd always be at lost.
I never know what I wanna do when I grow up.
Once when I was in primary 3 or 5, I put the job name "Kakak", meaning babysitter cum maid.
After that I kinda give up and put in "Nurse", same as my mum cos it's only natural that people would expect us to write something our parents are doing.
But, it's just my way of shutting people up.
When I was in form 5, I always knew I'd do something abstract, cos I'm good at it.
But after form 6, I chose a safe profession, cos it's a job guarantee.
Now, after almost a decade, I sometimes look back and realise I'm at a place where I'd never think I'd be cos I was doing the complete opposite of what I liked back then; something factual and practical.
I guess, life does teach us to always expect the unexpected.
Now, I keep on thinking what would I've done differently if I've been given a second chance to do things all over again.
I've thinking bout studying psychology. Or take up a language course, which I can do in my free time. Not the best choice of career, but it's for me.
When I Am Old, I
4 years ago
