♠ Ridiculed

You know the feeling of being ridiculed?

It's like when you are trying your best and feel good cos you think you are making headways then when it comes to giving updates, you come out of the meeting room feeling ridiculed and all your efforts undermined.

I have always been pretty serious bout my work, and I wouldnt be able to get a good job if my work has been shoddy. Or to be given projects if I'd been bad at it. I'd say I've always given my best at whatever I was doing and always try to improve myself.

So, to feel bad after leaving a room..well, I'd hate it if I tell somebody and all they say is "To hell with them, it's only work.." crap cos I know I'd have the face the same thing again next week if I didnt do something different than what I'd done this week.

I'm not the type that complains bout what went wrong in my life cos at the end of the day, I'd have to face it, not the people I've complaint to. And as much as I love complaining, it never gives me any inspiration on handling it better.

All I know from now on, if should I was placed as a resource under that person, I'd never put myself out to help him/her. Cos I just dont care so much for that sort of people.

And another thing I hate most is coming home to messy house. It gotta be something to do with age.

I'm feeling really down right now, and I cant put my finger to the feeling. And I do not want to talk about it. All I need is a quiet time to think bout how I can handle it better.

I guessed the best word to describe myself right now..is being taken for granted.