♠ Great Songs

I was listening to my old picklist.

My song list kinda frozen in time cos I'd never update them as each represents a time in my life when I was reminiscing deeply.

I'm with you by Avril Lavigne
I was listening to this song at a lounge, and suddenly time seemed to slow down. As I looked around, I see every movement with clarity..and I know I'd never be a good drinker or smoker, and it's ok. Cos I know what's important to me.

Everytime I close my eyes by Babyface
I saw this first during form5 on the tv's billboard show. It was nearing midnight, the lights in the house's living room were all lit up. My sisters were around catching up to the latest songs. My parents asleep upstairs. The road was empty, the crickets buzzed. It left a deep impression on how stable my life is, where my anchor is..in sarikei.

Click Five, the band
I was listening to their songs thinking how I hate boybands, I was even near nausea with BackstreetBoys. After couple of times unconsciously picking out their songs without even knowing how they look like or how famous they are; I knew I was officially a boyband fan.

From this moment, You are still the one, It's in the way you love me by Shania Twain
My definition of love songs and how a beautiful woman should look like (aside from Halle Berry); one can be small and still make an presence.

Right Here Waiting by Richard Marx
I've listened to this song countless times. My best memory of it was waking up in the university hostel, ground floor, third semester with less ppl, dawn..listening to the walkman's radio with earphone thinking how great if I'd listen to Richard Marx's Right Here Waiting, and I'd have no more prayers, no more regrets. And the dj took that moment to spin it. Talk about perfect timing. I told myself I'd never forget that moment. Third semester was lonely, but I need to take it to catch up with others cos I know my strength and weaknesses. It proves to trust my instinct; I got second-upper class.

Weird by Hanson
My sisters have great taste, in both music and tv dramas and bfs. The song truly represent my definition of not fitting in. So I kinda accepted that I'd never fit in, and that it's ok. And when I know I'm feeling something is not right with me on any particular moment of my life, I'd spin this song and I'd know I'm ok, that it's alright not to fit in. B never questions herself, Nat knows everything there is about being different, and I hope D will learn to accept herself for who she is. We do not have to fit into whatever expectations others have except our own.

The Blower's Daughter by Damien Rice and Love Song for a Vampire by Annie Lennox
Cant remember when I listened to this, but everytime I listened to it assuming the speaker is of good quality; it makes my hair stand and fall. Couldnt shake off the feeling of fascinated and haunted at the same time. Same feeling with the song Love Song for a Vampire by Annie Lennox, less on the hair fall tho.

Long Time Coming and The Greatest Story Ever by Oliver James
First time listened to it when saw the movie What a Girl Wants starring Amanda Bynes, I was about 26 then, a turning point for me cos I've been 26 yrs old since I was in form5 (18 yrs old per se). And when I actually turn that age, I told myself I'd start to turn back time and age back, haha..kidding. It's just a point in life where I got less clumsy and self-conscious bout my actions and consequences, and start to do something about it. Since then, I couldnt stop humming the songs, then I had it downloaded and sing to it everytime I listen to it. The voice just gives me comfort and assurance.

I used to arrange flowers for church services and stuff. And I'd go to the morn market buying flowers or scouring the flower shops near Setapak. Gerberas are quite cheap for me cos it only cost RM1 each and the flowers' petals huge and such brilliant colors. I used cold water with some ice in it and sink the flower stems for couple of minutes so the stems would harden before arranging them. Expired panadols are great for vase roses; the petals last longer and no mosquitoes and the water smell less.

Anyway, I used to go to this shop selling flowers and the owner mentioned that our genes actually have color genes in them, thus whenever we see flowers, it made us happy.

I dont know if it's true or not, but as for the happiness, yeah, it works for me.

What I'm trying to say is; colors and rhythmns lives in our soul.