♠ One and a half year later..

Happy belated new year to all.

My family came down to sg for christmas and new year, thus I've been caught up with family time.

I guess for my family, the most important thing is not where we are, but that we are together, bottom-line. I guess I'm grateful for that simplicity.

Today as I walked back home, I was feeling stressed out. I took couple of deep breath, and drank cold tea; works for me.

I guess my stress was long over-due. I'm currently re-assigned to new group; same work, diff business logic. I guess I was worried that I wouldnt do a good job, since I'll be taking on more things rather than a full switch as if they found a replacement, depending on my performance, I might or not remain where I am.

The other team lead was briefing me, and after work when there wasnt anybody around, we chatted a while. From the discussion, I guess I'll be more focusing on user support and less workload, which is good and bad on itself; skillwise, I know I'm stable, but seems like I'm moving towards management and consultation. Well, it's about time, but I dont know. Will I be happy just doing support? If I'm really doing full time support, I will have to take that exam.

That's when my dilemma hits me.

The other team lead was telling me that it's ok for me to stay sitting at my current place. So I said yea, I'd still sit there since I'll be depending on my other coll for technical advices. And the team lead was assuming I was mid 20s, which makes me think; am I giving the impression that I was young, or something else. But it couldnt be cos I was incompetent, cos moving towards that team was like an upgrade. So, I dunno how to think at the moment.

The other team manager was passing by my place and asking me that I'd need bigger space for the db diagram, and welcome me aboard.

I guess I'm in a boundary; meaning I'll still be doing enhancement for the current team and doing support for the new team. Which means, I have to learn fast. Which means, I have to clear my brain again to catch the new things. Which at my working experience of 6 yrs n counting, tho I can still make mistakes, I need to make them as few in betweens.

I guess, I'm scared I couldnt handle both. I guess, I think too much. I guess, I'm putting pressure on myself for no reason. Like what I said, the stress was long overdue.

At the moment, I'm telling myself; dun worry, not yet anyway.

I guess, what I'm trying to say is; I hate being in the unknown.

If only there's a clear guideline, but guess that's the thing I gotta learn as I go along.

I'll be going back to kl this weekend for my friends' wedding, which is going to be a rush as I'll be back on sunday, thus let's see how many ppl I can catch up when I go back.

Till then.