♠ Not Doing Well

This month, is not right.

First; there's the haze.

Second; I got mult systems' production release, which causes some issues.

Thirdly; I got chided this month more than all the years I've been working here.

Fourthly; my parents behaved like a bunch of kids.

Fifth; I tot I was doing fine, only to realise I've been doing the wrong thing since I joined.

There's so much strikes against me this month; I tot mid life crisis hit me early heads on.

Too bad it's not.

I havent been improving since 3 yrs ago. I've been on learning curve to support users better, but it's not working as well as I'd like and I lost my patience along the way.

I realise I'm a bad teacher coz I cant teach, it could also be coz that person doesnt want to learn.

I'm not improving as a human being, career wise and pay wise. I'm only learning how to read ppl's moods and faces and summarising their sentences.

This feels like a bad relationship; you think you are in love, to realise the other person never loved you at all. How screw up can that be.

I had a dream last night; I was grabbing the wheel and drove to many diff places using unknown roads. It felt really good.

I know if I stayed on, based on how I'm feeling now; there's no way but down.

At my age and with the assistance of gravity; that cant be good.

I realised I havent been smiling lately, and frown more. Aesthetically; it's unpleasant.

A good cry / sex / sparring; I'll be fine.

PS : I just watched Abducted. Spoiler: it's not an abduction and a new action hero is born.