♠ "Dont Change"

A phrase I used to hear. I dont hear it often nowadays.

Nowadays, I hear questions like "Why not.." and "Why do..".

From ppl I know almost my whole life.

I'd like to say that they dont understand me, but they've been there for most of my life.

I guess I dont understand why ppl cant accept.

Is acceptance hard? Why ask me to conform to their beliefs or ideas? Why ask me to fit into that lifestyle or decisions which is rightfully mine to make.

I dont ask ppl to change for me, I wish the same for them for me.

I'm trying not to appease ppl, just live my life the way I want coz when the goings get tough, there's nobody there looking at the hard roads ahead of me but myself.

For those ppl who love me and wants the best for me, pls stop asking me to get a boyfriend, get married, have babies, do things I dont want to do coz I need my own pace and justifications to do things without ppl rushing me.

I'll take up a boyfriend or lover at my own time, there's really no time limit or competition for this. I'll get married, or not. I'll have babies, a baby, adopt, or not. I dress up for myself coz it makes me feel nice based on my mood. I do it quite randomly, sometimes for no reason at all.

Seriously, I dont want your life; pls dont make me do things which you think is best for me coz I'm happy.

Maybe you dont believe it, but when I'm happy, I dont go grinning like a madwoman. You'll have to look closely enough, there's a slight upturn at the corner of my mouth which can occasionally be interpreted as a smirk.

Hmm, this reminds me of Mona Lisa portrait; I guess she doesnt have eyebrows coz those are expressive. Perhaps Leonardo was saving the eyebrows for last coz he wasnt sure where he was going then when it came to the finishing touches, he couldnt figure out what expression to give, so just left the picture as it is with the expression leaving questions for discussions.

Thanks for your understanding.

To Nat, pls stop raiding my clothes and dont use this against me as your justification for "nagging" at you coz being a slob is no excuse; be original, come up with your own justification.

Pls dont "borrow" and hang my expensive delicate clothes with your used clothes, the correct method for borrowing stuff is to return it back to it's own original state and position aka cleaned properly and hang in the cupboard.

Oh yea, I "borrowed" your favourite dress for a day; it should be nicely stretched by now; I hang it beside the "borrowed" dress. FYI.